Posted by: yemenia68 | November 22, 2014

My thoughts………..again.

Posted by: yemenia68 | November 5, 2014

Human Existance, Religion, and Evolution.

evolution heaven

A majority of what I write is about life in general and sometimes
I write about my perspective regarding religion. As a Muslim, I learn
new things every day about my religion. Actually, the right word is
relearn. I love everything about Islam but sometimes I need a
reminder of my priorities as a practicing Muslim.
You’re probably wondering why I would need a reminder.
Well you see, life is a very complicated and complex journey.
Sometimes we humans can go astray (yes, I know there  is a very
broad definition to what going astray may mean, but in this case
I mean religion wise) because of our imperfections. We are created
that way, to make mistakes every now and then. Whether we learn
from our mistakes or not is optional since some of us are not too
bright. (Yeah, I like to crack jokes too). So every once in a while
we need reminders of our priorities in life.
You might even ask why religious people lose their righteous
path. What.. you think that people with religion have an armor
that protects them from an impure and contaminated world.
Well, think again, we are just as weak and vulnerable as
everyone else. We go through life challenges and tragedies
which consume us to the point of weakness and vulnerability.
The only difference is religion helps us heal and persevere.
It reminds us of why we are here.  It keeps us strong in our faith.
Because it is exactly that, FAITH.  We have faith in God…Who created
us for a purpose, to worship Him.
I believe that the most significant way to keep faith strong is in unity.
I’ve realized that when I am in a group discussing religion I feel
empowered by the strength the union creates within us. I suppose
that is why every religion has a place (mosque, church, or temple)
where groups unite to worship Allah (God).
I know it to be true that when I don’t discuss or read about my
religion for a long period of time, I tend to forget my religious
commitments and I start to indulge in temptation. Does that
make a bad Muslim, I don’t think so. It just shows that I’m human.
You know the rule that says the first thing a person needs to do to
change is to admit their flaws or insecurities,  that’s what keeps me
humble, acknowledging my flaws.
Humans were not created to be perfect, we were created to worship
Allah and to “learn” how to be better humans. It is a daily struggle to
fight temptation and better ourselves as humans because we have a
very strong adversary (shaytan) whose main goal in life is to distract
us from worshipping God, therefore leading us to evil.
Like I said, life is complicated and complex and the only way you can
survive successfully is with a manual (Quran) created by the only One
who knows everything there is to know about this world, our Creator,
Allah (God).
Of course I know there are a lot of people who believe that our entire
human exists began by chance because that makes sense, right? NOOOOOO!
Seriously though, how does a world of total complexity create itself. Do you
seriously believe that spontaneous production of a living organism is possible.
How does a living cell just pop out of nowhere and start reproducing other cells.
Nobody can even prove that. Which is why “the theory of evolution” is just that,
a THEORY. Of course scientist will argue that the common folk like myself couldn’t
understand scientific theory because we lack education or knowledge. You
only need common sense to realize that every living thing on this earth
cannot exist and continue to exist due to chance. If this was the case, why
can’t these scientist create one of the simplest creations on earth? They do
make it seem so simple. Oh yeah, they are waiting on another spontaneous
self-creating process to help them prove their theory. Another thing, even if the
evolution of a certain species is proven, how does that clarify how human existence
began?

For those of you who are like me, clueless to evolution,

see picture above, that surely explains everything.
Was that totally off topic? You think?

Posted by: yemenia68 | March 27, 2014

Mesothelioma

Posted by: yemenia68 | January 30, 2014

The greatest gift is love

Posted by: yemenia68 | December 31, 2013

2013 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 5,600 times in 2013. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 5 trips to carry that many people.

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Posted by: yemenia68 | December 28, 2013

How To Be Happy?

paradise

Do you ever stop to think about the things in life that make us happy.  Are the tangible and materialistic aspects of life more important to us or are the  psychological and more sentimental things what we appreciate more .
First of all, being happy and content all the time is somewhat unachievable if you ask me. Not trying to be pessimistic here, but seriously, there is no such thing. That is why we struggle throughout our lives. That is what makes life worth living, the struggle.
Secondly, depending on who you speak to, every individual has a different perspective on how to achieve happiness and whether it comes from a materialistic or psychological point of view.
One thing for sure is, every time we reach a certain goal, we are never content. There is always something missing. This is definitely the case when it comes to materialistic achievements. There will always  be space for more.  We are humans, right? It is in our nature.
On the other hand, sentimental goals seem a bit more simple. After all, all we want in life is love. To be loved by our families, our spouses, our children and our friends. That doesn’t seem like much to ask for, does it? What is so hard about loving the people you care about.
The problem is, even though love seems like such an easy achievement, conflict is what complicates it. Conflict is always there lurking, finding a way into our lives, building walls between us and our loved ones. Which means that achieving loving relationships is not necessarily the ultimate goal here. Maintaining those relationships is what is required for us to achieve the ” perfect and happy life”, I’m playing along here.

So in the end, whether our goal is materialistic or sentimental, there is always something keeping us from achieving total happiness. This is the way of life. What is the solution? You just need to understand how to live accordingly with what you have. All our obstacles come from our psyche. This does not mean that it is simple to program our minds into believing that we can overcome every negative aspect that we come by. It simply means that we need to be patient and humble in our quest for a simpler, less complicated life.

One does not need to achieve every possible aspect in life that they believe will make them happier, but instead should  love  and appreciate what he/she already has. Always putting into perspective  those who are less privileged will also help you appreciate what you have.

One more very crucial fact is that you will need to open your mind and accept that not everyone is open to simplicity and humility. In this day and age, most people seem to believe that these characteristics are only for those who are week, which is definitely not the case.

Posted by: yemenia68 | July 4, 2013

2012 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 12,000 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 20 years to get that many views.

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Posted by: yemenia68 | January 24, 2012

The power of writing

Writing is a very powerful tool. It has the power to either unite or separate societies. It has the ability to enlighten us about things we never knew existed. It tells us how people from the opposite side of the world live, worship and communicate. It shares the history of humanity from different eras, countries, religions, and cultures throughout the globe.
Writing that forces people to think and within those thoughts, creates doubt in their minds about their most significant beliefs and opinions is definitely the most compelling and stimulating kind of writing. It expresses the author’s mesmerizing ability to influence us in a very intriguing manner.
Alongside writing comes the acknowledgement of criticism, because depending on what you write, there will most likely be an opposing side of critics, simply because not everyone will agree with what is written. But isn’t that the beauty of writing, telling your story without having to care about the critics? Isn’t that basically why people write, if not to influence others, it’s to understand how their writing affects them?
I’ve always appreciated the art of writing. For as long as I can remember, my favorite past-time has been reading. I don’t think there has been a time when I was ever bored of anything I’ve read. Regardless of what type of reading materiel it was, I always seemed satisfied. I always felt a hunger for reading which never seems to be fulfilled, not for the lack of good material, but because I never get enough. So throughout my everlasting love of reading, I acknowledged that writing has also become another favorite pastime.
Now that I’ve shared my opinions on writing, let me get to my point. Although I love to write, sometimes I fear that I don’t have the ability to express myself in a more sophisticated manner. In ways that most writers captivate their readers and force them to feel every emotion they experience simply by reading their exquisitely written stories.
So how does one tell their life story without having to fear judgment? And if so, is the story worthy of being written. For a very long time now, I have been going back and forth with the idea of doing just that, writing a memoir, but for some unidentified reason, I always seem to put it on the back burner.
I guess one of the reasons for my hesitation is because my history is somewhat complicated. Although I’ve learned to accept and appreciate everything in my life, not everyone will understand my reasons for writing about it, especially my family. One thing I’ve realized about writing a memoir is that family and friends are always affected by it one way or the other. Not everyone wants the world to share their lives with them, so I have to put that into consideration.
So for now I’m going to stick with writing about everything and anything other than my life. Who knows, maybe one day I will reconsider my options.

Posted by: yemenia68 | January 3, 2012

2011 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.

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A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 7,700 times in 2011. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 6 trips to carry that many people.

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Posted by: yemenia68 | September 23, 2011

My Thoughts

 

 

It’s been exactly six months since I last posted. I don’t know why I stopped posting. I guess at one point I thought that maybe by posting I would find solutions to my problems, but most of the time I just wanted to be heard (you know what I mean). For some reason, I want people to know who I am, what I’ve accomplished in life, my hardships, my happiness and all the other highlights in my life, but the question is why?

Is it because I’ve lived an isolated life and I wanted and needed recognition or acknowledgement from others? And then I ask myself” recognition and acknowledgement for what exactly?” What exactly have I accomplished that deserved to be recognized?  After all, I am a normal person with a lot of issues in her life, but who doesn’t have issues, seriously, its 2011?

Is it not enough that the people who know me refer to me as strong, intelligent, driven, wise and compassionate? Or maybe it is I who does not have faith in myself and need to be reassured by others of my positive characteristics. Or is it possible that I crave attention?

One thing that I know for sure is that I fear failure. I fear that I will not be a good enough daughter, sister, mother, wife, and every other position that I will be labeled throughout my life. Which consequently pushes me to constantly strive to be a better me, and throughout the process I realize that, not everyone wants to be a “better” person.  After being shocked time and again, I wonder, is it me? Are my standards too high? Is there a limit to how high you set your standards? Is a common courtesy too much to ask for, or maybe a little respect every once in a while? You see, once you have to ask yourself time and again “is there something wrong with me that I ask for such things?” than you know that you should change your perspective on life and people.

Since I was a child, I have been moving back and forth from here to Yemen. I’ve never had a stable life. And since I’ve never stayed in one place for a long enough time to have a steady and secure place in one society, I’m constantly lacking a social life. I always felt “different”. Another reason for not establishing social skills, I guess, was because we (my sisters and I) simply weren’t accustomed to going to social gatherings since childhood.  For as long as I can remember, regardless of where I was, everyone always thought that we were conceited, merely because we rarely went to social events, which was far from the truth.

It’s funny how I try to be my own psychiatrist. I constantly ask myself why and how every time I feel in doubt of my actions. The thing is, sometimes I need to know that whatever issue I’m tackling has been somehow mentioned in some psychological theory or something.

I’ve been in a depressed zone for a while, which is why I needed to write something, anything for that matter, even these scribblings seem to make me feel better. This probably has something to do with the fact that I’ve regretted for a very long time the fact that I never pursued my dream of being a writer.  So you see……….now I know why I started this blog.

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